So I realized I haven’t shared much about my pregnancy to date so I figured I’d take a little time to tell you a bit about my experience so far second time around. Lots of people told me each pregnancy is different and my experience this time would/could be a completely different experience to what I’d had previously with Grace. That sounded wonderful to me because my first experience wasn’t exactly easy. But in actual fact my experience this time has been an almost identical one to my first. Now, I want to premise this with the fact that I don’t mean to paint a pessimistic picture of pregnancy. I am so incredibly grateful for this little baby. It took us quite a bit longer to get pregnant second time around and there were definitely times I thought Grace might be an only child, which in itself is not a bad thing, but I’d always hoped she’d have a little sibling to play with! Having a baby is a miracle, it still completely blows my mind and believe me I would endure every minute of the discomfort over and over if I had to in order to have this second miracle baby in my life. But I did want to share with you some of the realities of pregnancy and the reason I was MIA over the past few months. So here we go…
Around week 6, actually on the first day of my sixth week, (like clockwork!) I threw up. The morning sickness which should not be labelled morning sickness lasted all day at first. It was a relentless nausea that got worse when I came in contact with a smell I didn’t like. During pregnancy your senses are on high alert, and you can be revolted by a smell other people can’t even smell! For example, I couldn’t stand the smell of the fallen Autumn leaves on the ground outside, the plastic colanders in my pan drawer had to be removed, and I had to stop Eric from making fires because I couldn’t stand the smell of burning logs – this used to be one of my favourites! But the smell of these things would send me running for the nearest bathroom the minute I got the faintest whiff! There were times I’d go to pick Grace up from school and I’d be late for her because of being sick outside my car in the parking lot. If my neighbors didn’t know that I was pregnant at the time then they most definitely must have thought I was an alcoholic because almost every time I left the house I’d throw up in the yard! The first few months were really tough, and also the reason I was so silent on my blog. I know it sounds ridiculous but I couldn’t stand to look at the screen of my computer because it would give me such a headache that would again trigger the nausea. But because it was so early in my pregnancy I couldn’t explain my absence, it was too early to share, which was frustrating!
Anyhow, now at four months I wish I could say the sickness has gone but unfortunately it hasn’t. But it is much better than how it was in the first trimester. I’m not quite as sensitive to smells, although this particular sense is still very acute. I am still throwing up but it’s usually attributable to tiredness, and comes usually only at the end of the day now. I had no idea about this first time around but the more tired you get, the more prone you are to getting sick, which makes so much sense because you are so fatigued especially in the first trimester. In terms of my relationship with food that’s probably the one thing that has been different this pregnancy. I’ve wanted carbs on top of carbs, probably because they keep you full, and sickness can creep up on you when you’re hungry. So my new approach to eat little and often has helped but has also meant that I’ve been putting on weight like crazy this time! But, there’s never a better excuse right?!
So that’s my pregnancy update and my experience so far. I know that many women struggle with morning sickness and it’s not an unusual side effect, but it is real, and it is tough when you’re going through it, whatever your circumstances are. I think especially when it comes at a time when it’s too early to share with people. I’m excited for the next few months when (hopefully) the sickness has dissipated and I feel back to my old self. I’ll be sure to update with more pregnancy news as things progress, but for now I’ll leave you with this sweet little outfit from last weekend. I love this oversized blazer from Chicwish perfect for my growing bump! – and this scarf from H&M for $30 (courtesy of my best friend last year!) restocked this year! It’s a perfect maternity/non maternity outfit for the season, maybe with the addition of warmer shoes for daytime! More looks coming soon!